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drained

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"love is all you wanted but baby you're givin' it away like extra change"

life with out smoking is dangerous for my health.
the willpower needed for this project is not in my possession. 

i'm givin' up before i begin.
i'm driving myself crazy.
 
so bryce's sister kelsey swears up and down that she wasn't talking about me.
i want to believe it but i'm no fool.

the bitch is still staying in my appartment for three days durring warped tour.
durring these 3 days i get to live with the awkwardness, pretend to be somebody i'm not in order to be somewhat accepted by this uptight piece of shit bitch. i will have to watch everything i say. 
wanna know what i say?
i say this is bullshit.
it is bullshit that i have to act like i am someone else.
i try so hard to impress them all, for what?
the sad truth is none of them with ever like me!!?!??!!

not only is she staying here... but bryce gave permission [without asking me] for her to bring a tag a long who hates me as well. 

so not only will there be the awkwardness... but we will have 6 people living in our one bedroom/one bathroom apartment for three or four days. it is rediculous.

i am stressed. 
i feel like this won't be fun like i pictured it.
how can you have fun when you know someone doesn't like you
but you are kinda forced to be nice to them.

fuckkkkk.
i hate alcona. 
its a stupid ass hicktown.
everyone there;; their nobodies.
its pretty sad that they thrive on drama.
i mean what the hell.
i have been gone for 6 months and they still are talkin shit about me.
i feel famous in a small town.

[	Mood	|	annoyed	]
[	Music	|	where does the good go- tegan and sara	]

i hate the fact that my family adores bryce and his whole family hates me. because of my past they hate me. it is rediculous. put the past away. i am  so  sick of trying to impress them when i know they will never like me. i never did anything for them not to like me. it's bullshit. alcona is nothing but a big fkin joke. they all thrive on talking shit and drama. it's pathetic. i haven't lived there or talked to anyone there in 6 months maybe more and they still insist on talking shit. why? because i drink, smoke and have sex with my boyfriend?? that makes me a bad person? i apologize for having fun. i am not saying you have to drink, smoke and have sex to have fun because you certainly don't but you don't have to place judgement upon people who do those things either.